Dear Audrey
I wonder if there are real life fairy tales.. I wonder if I would ever have one of my own.. I saw this one guy. Saw him at musical Mondays with the guy I was SUPPOSED actually like. But there was something about this other guy. Like he was radiating this energy that commanded energy. And it doesn't help he was attractive. He was perfect. I hope I see him again. I pray for t.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Friday, November 9, 2012
Fri Nov 7; 12:34
Dear Audrey,
I have this weirdest sensation. I'm sitting right next to SVT and it's awkward. Like she's keeping so much from me. Not like personal diary stuff, bit stuff like our friendship. I'm hoping and praying that more than anything in the world that we're not falling apart.
I'm seeing the leaves fall. The small mass of foliage on the ground and I kinda feel a connection with it. From being so lively and happy to dead and on the ground.
Why won't she talk to me?
I feel like [of course] this is my fault. But the I look back and it's not. But then it is. Idk I'm just lost. The weather is beautiful today.. Makes me sad. This friendship is the most out there thing I've ever had. I've never had something so complicated. I keep waiting for her to be done. Just give up. And I know how much that'll piss me off but idk. I've never been around someone who makes me feel like they don't care. Like this is completely one sided. I' feel like a mistake... Like a made the wrong decision somewhere.. Like somehow, she's done but won't tell me..
I'm scared. I don't need a repeat of September..
~BaD
I have this weirdest sensation. I'm sitting right next to SVT and it's awkward. Like she's keeping so much from me. Not like personal diary stuff, bit stuff like our friendship. I'm hoping and praying that more than anything in the world that we're not falling apart.
I'm seeing the leaves fall. The small mass of foliage on the ground and I kinda feel a connection with it. From being so lively and happy to dead and on the ground.
Why won't she talk to me?
I feel like [of course] this is my fault. But the I look back and it's not. But then it is. Idk I'm just lost. The weather is beautiful today.. Makes me sad. This friendship is the most out there thing I've ever had. I've never had something so complicated. I keep waiting for her to be done. Just give up. And I know how much that'll piss me off but idk. I've never been around someone who makes me feel like they don't care. Like this is completely one sided. I' feel like a mistake... Like a made the wrong decision somewhere.. Like somehow, she's done but won't tell me..
I'm scared. I don't need a repeat of September..
~BaD
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